Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Well, it's been awhile

I do have my reasons for abandoning you, dear half assed blog, for several months.  Things never did quite uncomplicate for Drew and me.  We soul searched, talked, cried, and realized it wasn't meant to be.  He took on quite a challenge in a widow with 2 children.  And he rose to the occasion.  Sean and Siobhan will miss him in their every day lives.  So will I.

We filed late last February and by August it was final. Since the filing, we've both found other relationships and are cautiously moving on.  Are we friends now?  Surprisingly yes, we are.  It's not like we hang out, but recently, Drew was in Saratoga on business with his new girlfriend and we all had dinner together (my new boyfriend included).  It was a bit awkward, but it ended up being fun.  Drew's a part of me, just like JP is a part of me now.

I've gone back into private practice.  I enjoy having my little office and my office hours and having more of a normal life.  I teach on occasion and I still do the paranormal stuff, I've just decided to scale back on the investigating and get back into what I used to do - psychokinesis and the like.  And I've decided to finally polish up my thesis for my anthropology Masters and submit it.  Wish me luck on that!

I do promise to TRY to get to this blog more often.  I just need to wrote more even if no one ever reads it.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

The more I learn about people on the internet, the more I like my dog....

I always fancied myself an intellectual.  As said intellectual, I ignored the subculture of internet celebrity gossip blogs.  Thanks to my friend Liana, however, I am now more than aware of them.  In fact, I got my first threat on a celeb gossip blog just today.  Liana is so proud of me.  God, she's a bitch.

What I have noticed is that there are people who are into certain celebs.  I mean REALLY into them.  So into them that they feel compelled to threaten anyone who doesn't share their worship. I responded to one of the more vitriolic users with a comment that she certainly seemed a bit obsessed by what other users said and she responded with a threat and a comment that she hoped I didn't analyze my "patience" the way I analyzed her posts.  WTF?  I didn't analyze her posts.  It was pretty clear from the vile things she said about other people and the fact that she appeared to follow certain users from post to post to state such nasty things that she was rather personally obsessed.  And of course, I don't analyze my patience, as I have none.  I do, however, have patients. And it's not my job to analyze them. I assist them to analyze themselves.  Another one "put me in my place" by telling me to shove my opinion up my ass.  Such lovely women. And that is only a cross section of the crazy that posts on celeb gossip blogs.

So.... why are people so invested in the lives of celebrities?  Why do they care?  Anyone have any ideas?  Do they live vicariously through these posts, hoping that someday, the objects of their "affections" will contact them and thank them for their staunch defense?  I would think it more likely that they would be greeted with a restraining order if their idols ever read the crap they posted.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Brenna’s personal notes on P-101 case 2012.01.01.PHI

Just completed case 2012.01.01.PHI with the P101 team.  This was a private home on Long Island.  The clients wish to keep their identities and address private.

This was an interesting case in that we gathered next to no “evidence,” whatever evidence we gathered really failed to pass the P101 standard of evidenciary acceptance, and it was in both my opinion and that of the rest of the team that there was no spiritual activity.

So, did I consider my New Year’s Day night and last night wasted time?  Not really.  My interviews and the correlating interviews from Laura showed that there was something more interesting than ghosts happening, at least more interesting for us as mental health professionals.

Grief.  Such a small simple word for such a deep all consuming emotion.  I could go on about the stages of grief, but that’s not what this post is about.  It’s about the inability to let go due to grief.  In my opinion, our client was unable to let go.  She was unable to face that her loved one wasn’t coming back.  So her mind created a way for him to come back.  Her mind created his scent, his sounds, the feeling of his presence.  In a sense, her mind created a haunting.  And that haunting will remain until she can finally say “goodbye.”  Is this unhealthy?  Not in the short run.  But in the long run, yes, it can become unhealthy.  The fact that she called in a paranormal team and expressed an interest in helping the “spirit” move on could mean that she herself is ready to move on. Time will tell.